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Name: Kristin
Birthday: 8/25/1987
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Interests: God, hanging out with friends, amusement parks, quoting movies, making people laugh with my naivety and gullibleness and clumsiness, afternoon naps, doing whatever I can to have fun, reading, swimming, basketball, being outside, fashion, magazines, my family, corny humor, meaningful conversations.
Expertise: collecting things. and by things, I mean clothes mostly.
Occupation: student
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Saturday, April 05, 2008

brooklyn!

imagine me saying the title of this blog in a nice thick brooklyn accent. it’s pretty funny when i do it. i try to be hardcore. brooklyn’s not really as scary as everyone thinks. well, at least not the parts i’ve wandered through. last week i had the pleasure of going to quaint williamsburg. it was so cute and the buildings were shorter and i went to a vintage store called beacon’s closet. i really liked it there, they had a lot of awesome stuff, and i came out with a wristlet that i love for only 11 bucks. the clothing was reasonable and i see no reason why i wouldn’t go back to look some more. my friend and i went there, got some lunch, and then went for gelato/sorbet. the guy must have thought we were cute because he gave us extra on sunday i went to church, then to greenwich village which is so nice and quiet and little. i went to magnolia bakery and got a cupcake (they really are as good as everyone claims) and some banana pudding (even better).

now this weekend. this weekend, i wasn’t sure what i wanted to do. last night i plotted out how to get to several places, and this morning i decided on the brooklyn botanic gardens. i really had no idea how wonderful it would be until i got there. the ride to get there was a little rocky, fraught with delays and an unexpected transfer, but i got there. i walk up the steps from the subway, the sun was so beautiful today, and i looked around and found signs to the brooklyn botanic gardens. i wasn’t expecting to pay, i hadn’t thought of that, but i paid the 4 dollars it costs for a student ticket and went on in.

i can’t even describe how breathtakingly beautiful it was even just in the entrance. the sun was so bright, the flowers in bloom, some of them just budding, it was just so beautiful. and so green! i had forgotten what grass felt like as i stepped off the walkway and my foot sunk slightly into the forgiving ground. the sound of my footsteps in the grass was music to my ears, as was the lack of sirens and horns. as i walked farther along, i made sure to take pictures, but i knew that i had to really look at the trees and flowers and nature around me, and appreciate it beyond taking a pretty picture. i walked slowly along the paths that were cut, and occasionally ventured off the beaten path. there were so many kids around, and even though there were a lot of people, it didn’t seem like it because the place is so huge. some of the kids were doing cartwheels, playing ring-around-the-rosie, it was idyllic and absolutely relaxing. i was happy to see many couples holding hands, wandering around, and there were plenty of couples playing with their children, chasing them, and laying in the grass while the kids yelled, "watch this!" it’s times like these that i could picture myself living in the big city, well - outside the city, in brooklyn. after i spent hours in the gardens and conservatories within, and read a book under a tree, i left even though i didn’t really want to. it was getting a little chilly because of the breeze, and i was getting hungry.

the brooklyn museum of art was right next to the gardens, so i walked past that and noticed an ice cream truck. i couldn’t resist the urge to have ice cream for lunch so i went and got a chocolate soft serve cone dipped in cherry. it was the kind of ice cream that you have to eat fast, before it melts all over you, and i felt like a kid again. of course, there were plenty of kids here, too, and most of them had ice cream as well, mostly all over their faces. they were running around, ignoring the pleading of their moms to slow down, you’re going to hurt yourself!

on the way back, at one point the train went above ground, which i wasn’t expecting, as it crossed from brooklyn back into manhattan. a bright burst of light scared me as the train crept up and suddenly came out of the tunnel. i looked around, kind of confused and surprised, and then i saw it. the light hitting the water, the brooklyn bridge, the view i had was simply perfect. i sat, mouth open, and just stared in silence. i can still see it now, and i have the same wide-eyed, mouth agape look as i did then. that view... it will be a long time before i forget that. of course, all good things have to come to an end, so we finally slipped back underground and i decided to get off at union square before i headed back to my room. there was a farmer’s market going on, and it was so packed, but it was still neat to get to see everything that was set up, and i got a hot apple cider for a dollar that tasted so good. i finally made my way back to my room, and i went to dinner with a friend at a bbq place.

tomorrow isn’t supposed to be very warm or sunny, but the past couple days and weekends have been wonderful enough to make up for that. i took about 80 pictures at the gardens, and i definitely plan on going back, so i’m sure there will be more where that came from.

if you’ve made it this far, thank you. i hope you enjoyed the update.


Tuesday, February 26, 2008

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location: new york, new york

i signed onto the xanga site and there is a whole bunch of new stuff. i could barely find out how to blog! i got an email last week from xanga, saying, we miss you, kristin! aw, shucks, that's sweet. i figured i had some stuff to write about. i can't believe my last blog was in september, when i was still all worried about new york. well i'm here! holy cow! i've been here about a month and a half, i'm living here, taking classes and working about 30 hours a week at my internship, which overall i LOVE. i love the people i work with and for, it's really laid back, i can wear jeans and tennis shoes if i want, and i usually want to, so i do. the city is busy, loud, chaotic, but i'm getting used to it more and more, i'm to the point where i actually like it here, i think. i feel like a city girl, kind of. i can fall asleep to sirens and horns blowing. i never forget where i've come from though. the hardest part about being here actually is the fact that my grandpa right now is recovering from heart surgery, and taking his time, too. i keep praying, and i do believe that God is doing a work in my grandpa, and someone brought up the other night that i should be so thankful and happy that he knows the Lord, that he was baptized a couple years ago. to be honest i don't want to think about that, because of what it implies: if anything were to happen... he'd be okay. of course i'm ecstatic about the latter part, but the first part of that statement, i don't know if i'd be alright with that. it's so hard being away from home, having to hear about everything after the fact, through a phone call, and not in person. i think that i will be able to see him over spring break, i'll go and visit him then, when i'm home from march 15-23 (which is amazing in itself, home for over a week, ohmygoodness, right?!?) other than that, i mean, it's been kind of neat being here. i'm really proud of myself for doing this. i was told the other day that i'm not really a risk taker, but to have come here, doesn't that prove that i have the tendency? no, i'm not a foolish risk taker, but i love the thrill of the unknown, when it comes to things like this. i have been so blessed and that has probably helped - my boyfriend Joe has been able to come twice already, how lucky am i, no? my mom and a friend of hers are coming march 8-9, and then my aunt, mom, and cousin are coming in april. plus, my trip home, did i mention how pumped i am? i absolutely positively definitely know that God is taking care of me here, protecting me at every turn, everyday, looking after me and blessing me immensely, but why is it hard for me to feel close to him? some people think it's dark here, there's a darkness here unlike anywhere else. people don't smile when you make eye contact, they almost challenge you as if they have something to prove. it's sad. i've noticed that i don't smile that often either, at least not when i'm walking to work or school, just going about my day. the only times i have been hugged here are when Joe's come to visit. i've been trying to smile more. i just think about how blessed i am.God loves me, i have amazing family and friends at home that are proud of me and worrying about me and sending me nice little notes and care packages. i still read my Bible every night, and pray, and try to keep somewhat of a dialogue going with God. i finally found a girl in the program to hang out with, i knew her before this a little bit, but never hung out with her. she's one of the few people that wants to go out and do something other than drink. we went swing dancing last week, which was so much fun, and i look forward to finding creative cheap things to do with her while i'm here, and even after this. i feel she's a friend i would absolutely love to keep. i could really use prayer where that's concerned, that i would really be able to make the most of my time here and not take it for granted, not waste it, and also with my grandpa... i am crazy about that man, and i know God is protecting him, he keeps making him better, even though it's been a roller coaster, he keeps pulling through, and i know prayer and God have everything to do with it. if you're reading this, i love you. 


Thursday, September 27, 2007

ahhhhh i've been stressed and so tired all the time. i feel overwhelmed by school, work, planning for new york, and thinking about money, worrying about the future... i swear i have mono or something, but i'm sure it's much less than that, like maybe just getting a cold. i go to bed and toss and turn because i have a lot on my mind. i was just asked tonight, what could you be stressed about? what in your life is hard or bad? good question. well, school isn't easy, and although i should get a teensy weensy break here soon from schoolwork, it'll just start right back up. i am so worried about whether or not i'll get an internship in new york, and i was just informed by an adviser today that what happens to people who do their internship in new york while taking classes is that they just end up being coffee fetchers. i'm like, gee, thanks for making me feel great about the fact that it's basically my only option. i just met this woman, this adviser, and i already don't like her. she said, well you know, the internships that turn into actual job offers are the ones that are in the summer, when they can get to know you, and i'm thinking, well if you'd like to fork over the $4000+ so i can do that this summer in new york, go right ahead, and if not, then at least TRY to understand my situation and make me feel a little better about it. she also mentioned i could do it in the summer when i get back, but the only place i would want to do it is in beachwood, which is over an hour commute, and there is NO way i'm driving there for an unpaid internship while not being able to work to actually make money. summer is the time i make all my money anyway, working for my dad, which is another reason i want to do it in the spring. i certainly don't want to do it my senior year back in kent, while going to classes, because that will limit my choices even more. i just really really really need prayer and reassurance that God will help me... i feel like crying half the time and i've covering up the fact that something's wrong when the people i love ask what's up, and i know they can tell, but don't want to pry. i have almost no motivation to work out, but i force myself, because i know i have to if i want to reach my goal of losing another 10 lbs by Christmas. i just need more faith and some prayers. 


Saturday, July 07, 2007

i broke up with my boyfriend of 8 months. the reasons are hard to explain, if you'd like to know i'll try my best... they almost have me second-guessing myself, but i feel i did the right thing. i've been losing weight due to stress and work. i've still been in God's word almost everyday, but sometimes it doesn't feel as if he's telling me anything, speaking to me. i want to know that decisions i've made are right, are the best for me. i am just now getting my appetite back, but i'm scared to eat too much, because when i do i feel nauseous and think i'm going to throw up. i've been trying to get back in touch with friends that i didn't see much when i was dating Chris. not that he held me back or kept me from seeing my friends, but it wasn't very often that i was able to see him when we were together, so free nights were dedicated to being at his house or having him over here. i know he's still a mess, or it seems so. i still have some of his stuff... hoodies, sweatpants, class ring. i figure he'll get in touch with me when he is ready. and if not, then i'll see him at the place where we met, and either give it to him or give it to a friend of his to pass along. i don't even have the desire to go out with anyone. people say that will change, give it a week. that's how long it's been, a week. i keep doubting myself, thinking i made the wrong decision. it would be so easy to get back with him, but first of all, that's probably the last thing i need, since i would probably just end up in the same position i was a week ago, two months down the road. second, who's to say he would want to get back together? sure, the sad song and depressing blogs he's been writing may lead one to believe he'd take me back in a heartbeat, but deep down i know he will probably always harbor some kind of bitterness towards me. this makes me sad. really sad. i'm okay when i'm busy, not thinking about things... but then, usually before i fall asleep, when i'm winding down, then i start to think. and cry sometimes. i just pray that i will move on and that i did the right thing.


Wednesday, April 04, 2007

ohhhh xanga. how i've neglected you. i've had a lot of projects for school recently and as the month comes to an end there are even more. i've decided not to stress out about them unless i have to. for example, if i'm doing one the night before it's due at 11 pm, THEN i can stress. but before that, i'm not allowed. things are going well in my  life. there have been times lately where i've slipped away from what i know is right...times when i go too far, even though i know it, and still continue. but never too far. i hadn't done devotionals in a week as of sunday, so i've been doing them the past couple nights. getting back on track. it helps.

a girl i work with told me yesterday that she's been with her boyfriend for almost 2 years. he's almost 19, she's 21. she is his first (real) girlfriend. they're already making plans for getting married. i cannot imagine this. even at 21, there's no way i'll be married, let alone now, at 19. i think it's wise for me to graduate school first, and then go from there. my mom told me that she believes people should date more than just one person before getting married. i say, why bother? if you feel you're supposed to be with someone, why should you break it off with him in order to date more people, just to make your mom or society happy? i'm not saying that i am sure i'll end up with chris and therefore feel indignant about what my mother said, but it's just ...i dunno. whatever happens, happens. i've dated other people, but have never gotten serious with them. does that count? i feel that you know what you want without having to experience a dozen relationships. some say 'the more experience, the better', including my best friend. she's had at least half a dozen boyfriends that she's dated for 6 months or more, and is engaged at 20, after less than 6 months of dating her fiancee, who is 23. so, the fact that she's had so many boyfriends makes her wise? really? she's also told me that she wishes she hadn't gone through everything that she has, because in the beginning of her current relationship, whenever jon would say something one of her previous boyfriends had, like a promise, she was wary. and she's been cheated on twice. i don't agree that experience is necessary. sure, maybe it helps you spot the jerks, but that's not an issue for me at this point. i know my mom wants the best for me, i know she does...and i know she's not trying to sabotage my happiness, but rather, trying to make sure i am happy and make wise decisions. i understand the concept of obedience, but God tells us that even things our parents tell us are not the wisest things. maybe what she's telling me isn't the best for me, even though she has no way of knowing that. does that make sense?



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